Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Different

The past six weeks have been ones of growth for myself. Six weeks ago, I was at a pretty low place in my life. There were a few things I needed to deal with, thus the time away. God has shown me many things through this time...some of it was ugly, some of it a great realization that I can't believe took so long to finally get.

I am a twenty something wife and mother of three that somehow lost sight of what mattered. I have never claimed to be a people pleaser or claimed that it mattered to me who liked me or didn't. Deep down though, I was discovering that it did really matter to me. I was finding myself doing or saying things to please and caring so much what everyone was saying or thinking about me. God has sifted me. It was hard. I have come out of it feeling lighter and clearer about who I am. I don't need a bunch of friendships that I feel like I am the one always giving, calling, emailing. Highschool is over and so is the popularity contest. I am a different person now. I am trying to take a lesson from my husband, who is wonderful by the way, and just let things roll. I don't claim to be perfect, I don't claim that I am always pleasant to be around, I don't claim to have it all together. I do claim that I am forgiven, I am loved by God, I have a man that treats me like his queen, three beautiful kids that I adore, a family that is awesome, a church family that mean so much, and a few close friends that rock. Guess that's this girl needs. This is a start...here's to being content! That's just where I am.

5 things to add:

Erin said...

Allright....here's the deal. You pray for me and I will pray for you.

Love you girl!!!

Hollie said...

Amen sister... Amen!

Sharon said...

I have a hard time getting off that path myself. I would like to talk with you more about this. Maybe through email.

Bonnie said...

Hmm, that was well said Beth!

Peaceful Chaoz said...

:0) Feels good don't it, LOL!!