Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I have been suffering, or should I say Dan has been suffering, with symptoms of PMDD for a while now. Most recently, I have been plagued with yeast infections and a few other biggies. This past week was the "last straw" and so I went out and spent around $40 on the recommended vitamins...a small price to pay to get back to myself again. Oh, and the chocolate syrup in the background is all part of my plan too. ;-) Bring on the vitamin burps.
little somethin by Beth at 8:16 AM
Saturday, July 25, 2009
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Thursday, July 23, 2009
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
This year, I will have my girls on either side. My sister is running this year, which I am so excited about and it's a dream come true! Then my running buddy and my very best friend, who is as crazy as I am, has signed up for the pain another year. I will need my girls to get through the race this year (since I won't have Hollie's husband to tell us to suck it up and keep going).
So, here's to one more month of training. Another month of not so pretty runs, failed runs, runs that make me feel like a winner, runs where I feel like I can go on forever. Here's to the pain! Bring it on!
little somethin by Beth at 11:33 AM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
It would be nice to get away, but it's just not possible. So spontaneously, last night, we packed up the kids and headed over to a mini golf place nearby. It was our first time mini golfing as a family. It was the perfect time to go with three little ones because we had the whole place to ourselves. We had a good time and the kids were free!
Kaitlyn's first swing ever.
My princess posing. She was a cautious player. She was more into looking at the scenery than playing. At one point, she was playing her club as a guitar and rocking out while the rest of us were mini golfing.
Landon picked it up right away and actually got a hole in one! He is a natural, but gets a little carried away and plenty of his balls ended up off the course. I think Dan is going to have a golfing buddy soon.
We topped off the night with a trip to Dairy Queen where Kaitlyn spooned the ice cream out of her cone, Landon took a few sips of his icee and decided Dan's looked better, and Collin ate the paper off of his cone without it even phasing him. I sat and took it all in, thankful for the time we were able to go out and have fun together. We are blessed.
little somethin by Beth at 5:46 AM
Monday, July 20, 2009
I especially loved Adopted for Life: The Priority of Adoption for Christian Families & Churches. It had me in tears some of the time. This book ties the adoption of children together with our adoption as Christians in a beautiful way. Here is something that jumped out at me:
The Author, Russell Moore, writes about his adoption of their two sons from an orphanage over seas. He talks about the eerie silence of it...babies lined up, alone in cribs, and none of them making a sound because they have learned that their cries go unanswered. He talks about driving away from that terrible place with his two sons and seeing them shake and reach back for the orphanage. Heartbreaking. He goes on to talk about other aspects, things to consider, the process, and how to encourage and support others that are adopting.
I will end with something else from the book that jumped out at me:
It's true that adoption isn't "natural." We have adoptions because we live in a world groaning under the curse of sin and death. Fathers abandon mothers. Mothers get pregnant without marriage. Parents are killed. Diseases ravage villages. It was not so from the beginning. The hard question about adoption -- and the easy ones too -- are only with us because something's gone wrong with the world.
Adoption is modeled after the natural family. But the biological family is also modeled after something -- the kingdom of God in Christ. King Jesus tells us his reign is hidden from "the wise and understanding" but is revealed to "little children" (Matt. 11:25).
The childlike kingdom we've come into is filled with transracial adoptees like you and me. It's made up of the "special-needs" orphans like us. Sometimes adoptions turn out with families that look remarkable similar - almost "natural," you might say. But let's not fall for the carnality that values boys over girls, that pits ethnicities against on another, or that is repulsed by physical or emotional weakness. Let's be the people of Christ, and, like him, let's teach ourselves to welcome children into our homes, even those our culture tells us we're not supposed to want.
little somethin by Beth at 7:40 AM
Saturday, July 18, 2009
After Landon hit his sister and she went running to her room crying and slammed the door, I had a talk with him. After I was done talking to him, I told him to go and knock on her door and tell her that he was sorry for hitting her. He walked down the hall and knocked on her door. Kaitlyn yelled, "Who is it?" Landon replied, "It's Wangon (it's how he says his name), and Mommy told me to come tell you sorry, so sorr - ry!" It was quite funny, but I then had to have another talk with him about how we say we're sorry.
While putting Kaitlyn to bed the other night, she looked up at me and asked, "Are you Daddy's maid?" I chuckled a little bit, because, it's probably just what it seems like because it's definitely how it feels sometimes. I said, "No Kaitlyn, why?" She said, "You're always picking up after him and cleaning things for him and doing his laundry. What does he ever do for you anyway?" I answered back (with a smirk on my face), "That's a good question. You should ask Daddy when you see him in the morning."
My kids are so funny!
little somethin by Beth at 10:10 AM
Friday, July 17, 2009
little somethin by Beth at 2:35 AM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Do you remember what it felt like as a kid when your parents told you that you couldn't snack before dinner but you watched them taste test dinner or even slip a little snack in when they thought you weren't looking? I am sure that's exactly what Landon felt like.
He's pretty nosey...all of my kids are really...maybe a better word would be curious. They like going through my drawers, cupboards, closet and pulling things out to ask what they are, where they came from, what I use it for. Well, Landon found my box of tampons in my bathroom. He pulled one out, looked at me, and asked :
as if I was hiding my own stash of them or something. Doesn't he know that Mommy only hides the chocolate?
I was ready to see him secretly sneak one away and try putting it in his mouth.
Do you think it would scar him for life?
little somethin by Beth at 5:25 AM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
There were two vegetables (well, I guess one is considered a fruit, but really, come on) that I would not eat : tomatoes and celery. I despised tomatoes. Go figure, I *love* ketchup. I eat it on grilled cheese, potato chips, eggs, meats, and on occasion I just eat spoon fulls when I have a craving.
About three weeks ago, while grocery shopping, I decided that I was going to buy eight tomatoes and make myself eat them and possibly like them. Eight in a week seemed reasonable...not too many that it was impossible for me to accomplish, but just enough to make it seem like a challenge.
The first day I ate three slices on a sandwich and was literally fighting the urge to throw up in my mouth and practicing my deep breathing I used while in labor with my three children...it was bad. It was some sight, I am sure. The first day, I choked down two tomatoes.
Each day it got a little easier and by the end of the week, I had a whole tomato diced up and rolled into a wrap. No choking, no deep breathing...actually somewhat enjoyable. So much so that this past Friday, I went grocery shopping again and picked up eight more.
I wouldn't say that I am passionate about them as I am about broccoli, cucumbers, carrots, or green peppers...but maybe with some time, tomatoes will join the ranks of veggies that I can eat raw by themselves...maybe a lot of time...okay, I would be happy just to be able to have them dipped in a little ranch.
little somethin by Beth at 6:41 PM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
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Thursday, July 9, 2009
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Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
My princess turned three less than three months before my third child was born.
I had given birth to three kids in three years.
It's very likely that I could have been crazy back then.
I have never been one to sit still for very long.
So, we got the having kids thing over with as quickly as we could.
It's been a crazy six years.
We got married, I moved, we moved, and we moved again.
We had a baby, and another, lost a baby, and then had another.
We went through some rough marriage stuff.
We bought a house.
We bought a car, and another, wrecked a car, and bought another.
We found a cat, picked out a dog, and killed two dozen fish.
Pause and take a breath.
Somewhere along the way, down this crazy road, we lost eachother.
Impossible, some may think, especially since we all reside in the same house.
Actually, it's rather easy.
It's rather easy to wake up everyday and have the usual not phase you one bit, because afterall it's just a same ole, same ole day.
It's rather easy to think that we'll always have tomorrow and today is just another day.
It's rather easy to overlook the little things that are sometimes the biggest blessings.
We have been doing some family building...or maybe it would be considered remodeling.
It was rather hard in the beginning.
Who likes to rethink things when it's been the norm for five or so years.
The norm wasn't quite working for us anymore.
If you would have asked me a year ago if I would have chosen my husband over my kids, I would have either said yes and been lying or said no under my breath and looked around to see if anyone heard me. My kids would have won, hands down.
My husband was someone who worked hard all day so we could have all the "stuff" and have fun during the day while he was gone. He would come home in the evenings and be so exhausted that he would either fall asleep on the couch or sit back and watch us play family and be such a zombie that he couldn't enjoy it...and then get up at 3:30 AM and do it all over again. I ran the house, did everything for the kids, and felt guilty if I left them with Daddy for more than two hours for fear that something would go terribly wrong. I love him and appreciated him...maybe just not as much as I should have.
So, take away the job and you have some tough questions there...some of them which have been asked out loud. On the other side, I would choose Dan. God has been working on remodeling our marriage and our family...I kinda have an inkling why...and we are doing all we can while we wait for the pieces to come together.
Yeah, a lot has changed in these past ten months!
We have always been a family...we are just better now...
(Thanks, Andrea, for taking our pic!)
little somethin by Beth at 1:18 PM
I have been singing this song all weekend...and was pleasantly surprised to be singing it during worship yesterday...love it!
little somethin by Beth at 1:06 PM
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
It's a pillow case dress (this was one of the tutorials I liked the best...there are many though) for my princess! It was super easy to make. I had everything on hand here at home, but my next one I would like to try some embellishing and dress it up a bit. I hope to perfect it and maybe make a couple to give away. Super cute and super cool for summer.
little somethin by Beth at 7:55 PM
Thursday, July 2, 2009
I can't help but think back to ten months ago and part of me sometimes wish for those times back...the part of me that hates the painful process of growth and change.
Ten whole months ago, my husband lost his job. Here we are, still sitting, waiting...we've been waiting for ten whole months.
This is the most difficult road I have ever walked in my life.
I have days when I am so thankful for God's provision and feel like I could face anything. I also have days when I feel like I want to dig myself a ten foot hole and jump in to it and hope that the dirt crumbles in over me.
I have days when I swear that I feel like the job God has for my husband is just around the corner and that I can keep walking just a few more steps. Then there are days when I feel like I cannot even take one more step and there is no light at the end of this tunnel.
Through this all though, I do know one thing. If I stop, reflect, and take a look back down the path that I have already walked, crawled, or been carried, I see that God is preparing me, molding me, building me. He is strengthening me for something greater and has gradually been showing Dan and I what He wants from us.
If any of you have read the book Hermie, you will know what I am talking about...if you haven't read it, you should. It's about an "ordinary" caterpillar. Hermie takes a look around and every one else, all the other bugs and sees the different traits they have that are certainly better than plain old Hermie. He doesn't have stripes, spots, he isn't strong, and he doesn't have a residence that he can carry around on his back. Throughout the book, God is whispering to Hermie and telling him not to worry, that He is not finished with him yet. God has a plan for him. At the end of the book, Hermie is transformed in to a beautiful butterfly. Well, I have kinda felt like Hermie for quite a long time. It's only been recently that I feel like God is revealing my purpose. I am okay with being ordinary but I would at least like to have a little bit of extraordinary that I can use for Him.
So, time is running out and we will soon be without our cushion (i.e. unemployment) which is a scary thing. I don't know what God has for us in the next two months. Please pray that Dan would finally have a job that would provide for our family. Also, that whatever is in store for us, job or no job, that we would continue to trust in God's goodness and faithfulness. He has us in the palm of his hand.
little somethin by Beth at 6:35 AM