Seriousness of Lately

Once again I find myself staring at my neglected blog, remembering the days where any little thing, any bit of news or happening, found it's way to this page.  I'm gonna try harder, I really am.

Around the middle of January, we had a bit of a scare here.  The thought of going through another unemployment had me in a state of panic.  It was during that time though that I realized how comfortable I have gotten in where we are...how much less I pray...how much less I come to Him with things unless they are urgent...unless they are far beyond what I can handle.  I could really kick myself...give myself a stern talking to.  God is so very patient with me.  Once again, I confess my unbelief and stand in awe of how he works everything out (beyond anything I could have imagined).  Dan worked a few short weeks that we are still trying to catch up on, but he still has a job and we are thankful.  Most of all, I am thankful for the reminder of what He has brought us through and for the reminder that I still need to be face down beside my bed talking to Him, walking the halls at work talking to Him, and ever mindful of how He has promised to never leave or forsake.

I have my sights set on running a half marathon on my 30th (yes, the big 3-0 is coming up for me this year!) birthday.  I had a bit of a scare the past couple of weeks and finally found my way to the doctor last Wednesday.  I am thankful that all of the testing has come back good so far.  I had to cut back my running all last week and got a taste of what life would be without my love...it left me praying that I would never have to live a run-less life.  I haven't had another episode in the past week and I am hoping that whatever it was won't return.  After the half on my birthday, I have my sights set on another full in May...crossing my fingers that everything works out.

My parents were able to come for a visit this past weekend.  It was just what I needed.  My Mom took me away for a pedicure.  My feet enjoyed the TLC.  My Dad took Dan and the boys to see Star Wars in 3D.  While they were away, my Mom treated my Princess to a day out to where ever she chose.  Kait gave it some thought and told her that she wanted to head to Barnes & Noble and then out for shakes...so that's what we did.  We finished up a great day by having a taco party.  The time always seems too short and I am always left waving good bye at the front door, puzzled, wondering where the time went.  I usually walk around for a few days after, feeling like someone has sucker punched me in the gut and knocked the wind out of me.  It's heartbreak everytime I have to say goodbye to my family...and you would think I would be used to it by now.  I guess after ten years of goodbyes to someone (Dan or my family) it wears on my heart.

February 15th, marked the ten year anniversary of me flying out on a whim to visit Dan for the first time.  I honestly can't believe that it's been ten years.  I was thinking about that the other day...the ups and downs, all we've been through, and how we continue to grow.  These past six weeks, especially, have been the most amazing.  It's been hard work, on both of our parts, but the rewards are great.  I sat in church on Sunday, at the end of the service in a time of prayer, his arm around me, rubbing my shoulder...I have never been more grateful for this man.  He has stepped up...and surprised me, his biggest critic at times.  We are learning right along side of eachother.  I was talking to someone the other day about marriage and how it's the hardest work I have ever done in my life...not a cake walk, my friends...I said that we are almost nine years in to it and it's just in the last couple of weeks that I truly feel that we are beginning to "get it".  It has to do with a lot of factors in our lives and we have in no way "arrived", but we are in a wonderful place right now and I feel blessed to be able to sit beside him in church and thank God for this man he has raised up to lead me and the kids.

So, with all of that seriousness out of the way, I hope to keep this thing up...