I have always been in good health...with a great immune system...how quickly that can change.
I wasn't feeling the best for about a week and decided to go in to the doctor on Sept 10th and get things checked out. I figured that it was allergy related (even though I have never suffered from allergies) and I would get a quick fix for them. I was having shortness of breath, killer headaches, and feeling just plain worn out.
I walked in expecting allergy meds and maybe allergy testing and walked out with an abnormal EKG and a script to have some lab work drawn along with an order for an echo.
It's funny where your mind can go in just under 24 hours...all of the "what ifs" that flash before your eyes...different scenarios that run through your head.
I went in the next morning for an echo, which I was so nervous about, and then headed over to the lab for some lab work.
I made my way home and about an hour later, my doctor called me personally to tell me that a few of my results from of blood work didn't look so good. My white count was low, my H&H was low, and my iron was very low. He ordered up a few more tests and I got another call.
In my mind, things went from bad to worse.
I was given orders on what to do next and was told to come in for follow up lab work in two weeks.
In the following days, the little things became big things to me:
I sat with my both of my sons as they read to me...
I watched my daughter put on a private skit for me from the comfort of my bed...
I watched my husband work his magic in the kitchen...
I went to church and sang "Great is Thy Faithfulness"...
I felt the sun on my face and soaked in the beautiful fall-like weather...
And today, for the first time in over a week (against my Mom's better judgement), I leashed up my Henry boy, put on my shoes, and went out for a run...
I cried not because I don't feel quite like myself or because I have been too tired to do much of anything, but I cried because in this past week I have realized just how much I have taken for granted. Why is it so easy to do?
While things are still up in the air, I am still left with the question, "What on earth is going on?!", and I am wondering how much longer my energy level is going to be so low, the old hymn that we sang on Sunday rings so true to me right now :
Morning by morning new mercies I see;
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided—
“Great is Thy faithfulness,” Lord, unto me!