Thursday, February 5, 2009


I cried when he left today.

I told the kids that Mommy was going to take a shower. I stood in there and sobbed while I whispered, through tears, to my Heavenly Father. It's not because I miss him. I do, I miss him here with me terribly. But, it's more than that.

I feel blessed. I am home with my precious treasures and then I have a little gig that I go to a few times a month to live out my urge to draw blood. I am thankful that God has allowed me to be able to enjoy both. I pray with all my heart that Dan is soon able to enjoy his hearts desire. I cried out to God for him this morning. How long must he wait? I asked Dan before he left, "Aren't you excited to be starting your new job today?" He replied, "Not really. Were you excited to go into Walmart?" I instantly knew how he was feeling and knew that he took this to give me what I wanted...sacrifice. I would give anything to be able to give him what he wants but my hands are tied. It rests on the One who knows my husband better than myself. Please pray with me that Dan would soon be given the desires of his heart.

The same eye that is on the sparrow is on the wristwatch. ~ Beth Moore, The Study of Esther

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Kimmie said...

Beth- God sees-He knows, He will be your provision, you will see His hand, He will draw your husband close, as He finds himself on his knees in a waiting position. God has not forgotten, He is using this to strengthen you in your Trust of Him...your faith is growing, you are moving ahead in your might not seem so now, but looking back, once you are through this will see it clearer. Nothing is impossible for God (Matt. 19:26) All things work for good, for them who love God (Romans 8:28).

bless you...I am praying for your Knight.

mama to 7
one homemade and 6 adopted