First, let me say a big "Happy Birthday" to my Momma Shirley today! I know I already sang to you my most requested version of Happy Birthday to You but just wanted to publicly say how thankful I am for this day and how much you have blessed my life. Hope you get your "pink motorcycle cake".
Well, my Mommy's Helper is here this morning and what big task have I accomplished? Let's see...I went for a run and then came in and have spent the rest of the time with my God. The organization of the office was calling me but, for those of you who know Him, my God's voice is bigger.
I haven't been sleeping. I have become quite obsessed with our money situation and my part in getting more of it. I have put resumes out and actually had an interview yesterday. Something just hasn't felt right. I have been torn between sitting back and just relying on God to provide our needs and then wanting to go out there and make some extra cash to stock pile for when things get really bad...is that wrong of me? Dan makes enough money. Although, we are feeling the pains of higher gas prices and other financial things that have popped up over the past couple months. The letter from Dan's employer was a BIG wake up call for myself. My spending had gotten out of control and I wasn't placing God at the center of our finances. I like to be in control. Dan's job situation is totally out of my hands. I need to trust. We revised our budget this past weekend and that was eye opening. It's now beside my fridge to record weekly spending and keep track of everything down to the very last cent. So far so good, but I know I am going to have to wake up every morning and ask for His wisdom, guidance, and self control. He will be faithful to provide our needs.
Which brings me to something I read this morning:
That right there was my answer. I need to seek God...chase after him not money. I need to simplify things.
I can't sacrifice the time I have with my little ones right now. I can't leave them for a few hours everyday just because I want to pay off debt and have a big savings. A few hours seems like an eternity to them right now. My kids go down for nap and wake up and think they slept to the next day. This is where I am supposed to be. This is where my heart is.