If I let it, my mind can wander into so many different scenarios. This has probably been the darkest time in my life. I have been up since 2:45...it's what my body tends to do under stress. So, it was then that all of the what if's popped into my head again. I looked over and was thankful that at least Dan was able to sleep so I left him alone to get his rest.
I told myself that I guess I just have to take this one day at a time. If I can help it, I don't want to even go into all the different terrible situations we might find ourselves. So, today...
...today my sister-in-law paid me a visit. It was a nice distraction and took my mind off of what's really going on.
...today my kids are healthy and taken care of.
...today we have electricity...a TV to watch, a couch to sit on, toys to play with, a roof over our heads.
...today we have foods in our cupboards.
...today I got out of bed
Rollin' Out
10 years ago
3 things to add:
I won't say we know exactly what you are going through because we don't yet have kids and I am working but we are very close to facing layoffs over here too. Even the job Joe sort of has now is pending completion of a trial period and then has no job-security after November. We are praying for you and Dan and the kids. Everyone has already said what you know to be true...that God is bigger than all this and He will sustain you. So true but hard to believe every day let alone every minute.
A few weeks ago, I was looking for jobs for Joe on Craigslist and there seemed to be a lot on there. If we hear of anything at all, we'll let you know.
btw after reading my comment i realized it's probably not really a layoff when you are self-employed. I meant that there is just no work out there that Joe can find. It's a scary time for tradesmen. Let us know if we can help somehow.
You are doing the right thing by taking this one day at a time & by focusing on all the truly wonderful things in your life.
For me, that dark time reminded me that my security should not be in money. BUT IT WAS! I realized that when Rick lost his job, I felt like everything around me would crumble, when really, God should be my unshakable foundation. I'm not saying this is what you are going through, it was just a really valuable lesson that I learned :>)
You have so many people who love you & such an amazing family in Christ. You will never be homeless or hungry. That thought comforted me too :>)
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